I always go a little more crazy when I am not around here puking out my weird thoughts. They just kick and rattle around in my head and create these weird grooves of insanity that I go over incessantly. It’s like magic when I push them out my fingertips and onto the screen.
Are you convinced I am having a psychotic break? Maybe I am, maybe I am.
2013 has been a crazy year already guys. Pretty much every thing in my life is in flux and it’s rough riding these waves of change. I am desperately trying to hang on, but I have had some low days. It makes it pretty difficult to stay upbeat when you’re dealing with career and financial issues. Being a stoic Capricorn, I am horrified by the amount of emotion that keeps leaking out of me. I know it sounds dramatic, but guys, it’s been rough. I have been doing what I do best when I get really stressed, and that’s organizing. It doesn’t make much sense, but I feel like if I can at least get a handle on my own space, maybe I can figure out how to proceed in life.
Have you seen the film Ratatouille? If not, you NEED to. I don’t care if you are grown up or a kid, you should view this film at least once. If you say to me, but Melissa, I really hate vermin. I say to you, TOO BAD. Just go watch it. My favorite thing is when the food critic Anton Ego orders some perspective at the restaurant (This clip is quiet, so turn it up):
The best part is that he DOES get some perspective, but you have to watch the whole movie to see what I mean.
Today I got some perspective myself. We visited the local food bank with Sadie’s class. Not only did we tour the facility and sort food items, but we delivered the food to some people.
For all the problems we have been having, at least we do know our kids are fed and don’t have to worry about being hungry. Figuring out which services to cut back on is nothing compared to going without food, toothpaste or healthcare. Things can always be worse, and sometimes it’s helpful to see that with your own eyes. I don’t want to speak ill of the people we delivered food to, I’m just saying that I have been freaking out over here, but really, we live a very good life. The perspective I needed came at a good time. Just as if I had ordered it up.